Alive.
Last you recall
My husband loved me right
But now he hits me in his sleep
In the middle of the night.
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Marriage still open?
You wanna know?
Yup same as always
Just goes to show.
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Well. .
Let me continue this tale of mine
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Stay awhile, put up your feet.
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So…
I was fading fast in the Arizona heat.
Many tragedies n illness
Left me a bed ridden heap.
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Not wanting to die yet
Refusing to quit.
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I Left town with a plant
my daughter
Laptop and dog
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my wheelchair and a blanket
We said goodbye to tucson
which was strangely covered in fog
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Thinking He would be able to grab the rest of our things
all our belongings our everything
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Once he arrived from another
month long trip.
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A year later. .. zip.
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Striking out to a place unknown
Only knowing it would be my new home. To Seattle we drove
My daughter and me.
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To the place where I became
Something more. …
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free.
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Of course there was a price
Hello! It’s me!
•The price is hard
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For me to share…
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One almost to much to bare
Even though I made it out of that horrid forsaken wheelchair.
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I lost my animals, my cars ,
all my money and land.
In order to save…
My brother.
An honorable man.
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Every debt collected
Called in every favor known
Even used ” Duchess” that my birthright bestowed.
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Leaving me without a single thing
Not even my wedding ring.
Made it past for me to keep
clear and free.
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Father heartbroken
He splintered like glass
He blames his only daughter for
leaving him alone to raise his last.
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Husband in shock with only me to blame. His wealth unreachable
Unless he rejoins His family and picks up the reigns.
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They don’t see him .
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For shame.
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Daughter in shock
it had just been she n Me
She panics often
Hates for me to leave
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her side
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“What happens if you fall mom
have a seizure ?get raped or die? Better stay inside mom
So I can hear if you cry. ”
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You gotta let me grow up sometime. I tell her as I race outside.
I run to the forest where I hide.
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May this year that was the worst. My van said I did 400 thousand miles
I now need a hearse.
• And keeled over dead
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In an intersection of course.
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My only baby my beloved Doxie
did as he should.
Tried to protect me and bit someone good.
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I sobbed as they took him away
Heart shattered a bit more as they drove away.
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as I knew I would never see
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My beloved Doxie after that day.
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Birthday came.
no presents, No way.
Just my eldest daughter calling
to say yey!
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Oh wait. .
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I forgot my broken foot
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Oh yes. . My birthday was good.
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I’m sure you’re thinking
Some pitiful thoughts
Either that or …
man that girl fibs alot!!!
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How much shit can you think up girl?
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You sad little sop.
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Here is where I remind
of my promise to you.
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I will not lie to me
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nor to you.
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Do you see all I’ve gone through? If I can make it?
So can you.
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Doesn’t matter what hell
I’ve gone through.
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What matters is hopefully
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maybe
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my story will help get you through
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your sorrow, your grief, your pain.
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Help you stand
AND
remember your name.
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You’re allowed to sob
Curse the heavens
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To blame.
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But in the end
You must stand tall in triumph
Not shame.
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One thing I hope to get through to you now.
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Life is hell
it’s ok to get blue.
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But I promise
somehow
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some day
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You WILL make it through.
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It’s not enough to simply survive
Find one simple good thing each day of your life.
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A cloud.
Someone’s laugh
the smell of pie.
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One day you will start to trive.
That is when ..
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you will truly..
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come alive.
Luna.
Luna's world of Beauty, Hopes & Dreams 