Category: thoughts

The demon grabs hold again
I try and fail in my sin.

The demon laughs while holding me in place.

I thought I beat you!

I scream in his face. 

I thought I won!

I thought I was free!

“Oh dear child 

you’ll never beat me”

His grasp so hard

 against my frame

Losing sight 

my breath 

my name.


He picks me up

 and cradles me tight

I can barely see his face

 in my dimming sight. 

Reaching up

 I stroke his face.

Don’t you know i didnt want to fight you in the first place? 

I remember you 

from when I was small. 

You would pick me up

after a fall.

Brush off my knees 

cuddle me tight

 I knew then i would be alright. 


I don’t know what I did 

for you to hate me so.  

But I wish you could 

Just let it go. 


I know you wont …

and thats ok

I know In my heart …

that I die today .

 But before you kill me

 I want you to know,

 I have always dearly 

 loved you so. 

Each time we fight

Wither I lose or win

All I want is to rebegin

To that time in the past

Before this hatred that’ll forever last.

Before the fire and the pain

Please tell me ,did I ever know your name?

My hand drops away 

from his face. 

I surrender myself

 in his embrace


To tired to fight him  

No longer caring 

if I win 

Giving up. 

Giving in..

I lay here fading 

being rocked in his grasp

Giving up my future

Forgetting my past. 


Peace at last. 

From far away I hear these words

“Oh dear child

We’re not through”

“I have never been angry with you”

“It is with love

 that I draw my blade

I’m trying to save you

Before it’s to late

With love that we battle 

when I let you win

Oh dear child I’m not your sin.”

Im doing now 

what I did back then

I dust you off 

wipe the blood from your chin 

I kiss the oweys on your knee 

Just as I did 

when you were wee.

This time next month 

You’ll have forgotten 

once again

That I am not your darkness

I am your friend.  

One day we will battle

 fighting until the bitter end

 Or until you finally see 

 the truth 

Or we are together 


Once again.


When we first start to fight

we think 

everything is gonna be alright

We havnt realized

how deep our demons hide

We think we are doing good

get more comfy than we should

then our demons come to play

In shock we say no way

They are stronger then we knew

in our depths they grew

Beginning to realize we are wanting them gone

They cling tight 

 say bring it on.

Just hold your breath

don’t give up yet

Take my hand

i’ll help u stand

Grab on to
your closest few

and battle on.

When we first start to deal

We begin to heal

The demons in us cry

I’ll never die!

They will do what they can

To change our plans

They want to always stay

and play
But keep your stand

They’ll- yell and shout

Make us doubt

Try and make us believe

but they deceive

So hold your breath

They are begining to fret

They will make us bleed

But don’t pay heed

Here is a cane and whip

for You to equip

You’ve got this hun

Make them fearful and run.

When they try sneaking back

Conviction they think we lack

They’ll try and force their way back in but hold up your chin

Tou may be shaking in your skin

but know you’ll win.

So grab my hand

I’ll help you stand

Grab on to your worthy few

and carry on.

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