So My last post ended

with things all a mess

about to be discharged

and us both in distress.


becoming more lucid

she was starting to recall

when like a hero of old

Her Doctor showed.


Her doctor did everything

that a great doctor should


She made sure my mom was clear headed

than they had a very long talk

She couldn’t go home so she was coming to me

by way of her friends house for the weekend

while I got things ready.


They made me my mothers medical power of attorney

which cut off all the others power

and my father was to stay with her

until she got to me, to make sure she had real care.


they would wait until the following day

for hospice and Me to meet

I went home that with a big sigh of releaf


The next day I showed up at my usual time

way before the am rounds at the 6 o clock


My dad showed up right around ten

we all sat and waited than waited more

it wasnt until late afternoon that they called to say

sorry to just go ahead and go home

they would meet me early monday morning

right as we are to bring mom to my home


6 that evening I open the door to my daughters old room

and burt into tears because a tornade looked like it blew into the room

there was no way I could get it ready with now only one day

than my brother called to say he was on his way.

all through the night and to the end of sunday we cleaned

and carried he and my youngest kept going after

i collapsed out of steam.


its been three weeks now that i have been running on 2hours sleep each night

My man has been out of town for work since before the first hospital night

Mom and the Nurse show up the next day

she settles in and I say YEY!


My dad and the kid they adopted showed up the next day

its quiet but its just running and running all day.

The kid tells me he hates my brother and he will make him pay.

I didn’t think I forgot that this kid is bad

he manipulates, and terrorizes until its too late

and because he is labeled every time the cops get called

their hands are tied unless its really great.


The next day they show up again

this time my brother and his babies

are here and hell began.

My father was tired and fell asleep

i was cleaning my mother up and asked

the kid to lend a hand


He said yup

so i handed over the garbage can.

next thing I know there is this horrid sound

almost like a car had crashed so I ran toward the sound


The kid was standing there a smirk on his face

and my hutch with all that I had of my grandma’s antiques

was shattered all over my place.

I dropped to the floor and started to sobb

he was trying to tell everyone that my brother pushed him and he was calling the cops.

My daughter had seen the whole thing

the kid pushed it over and my twin nephews would’ove been hurt if my brother had not of ran


My dad is on his knees picking up broken glass

and the kid

(who is 17)

was calling everyone he could

to try to get someone to call the sherrif


The person who was listening

and why they talk I do not know,

is the woman who caused all the the problems

just a few days ago.


I grabbed the kids shoulder

and said get off the damn phone

He grabbed my wrist and squeezed until

my fingers were blue

all the while screaming

I can’t tell him what to do.


My poor dad didnt know what to do

He grabbed their stuff

and got the kid to go too.


My mother is crying

the babies are too

I’m cradling my wrist

with my my other already broken hand

thats when my feet said they could no longer stand

I was just wishing it would all end.


No of course not

because my troubles are not over

emails and phone calls start arriving

from my mothers kin


They know what She wanted and my home wasnt it

I need to honor her wishes

and let her go home

what I was doing keeping her there

was kidnapping and they were not having it.


Oh and also how could I stand by and let my brother

hurt the kid?


after over 100 emails phone calls and threats

My moms youngest sister was the only one

who didn’t believe the woman and the kid.


of course while all of this is going on

my mother is fading away by each and every hour.

hospice is coming every day

no longer eating, drinking and her voice is starting to fade


My mother made me promise that me and my daughter

would still leave to see my other girl

the following day.


that night me and my girls got disowned

by people that I have always loved.

My mother wispered ” where am I”

than closed her eyes and that was the last time I saw her eyes


The next day hospice came and picked her up

my brother riding along in the truck

My girl and I hopped on a plane

We found out that she passed away

as we waited for our next plane.


everyone had forgot to call

but anyway we were in seattle.

but somehow I know that my mother made sure

and we had to go, so she waited until we were gone.


I only cried last sunday

with my girls holding me saying “mom its gonna be ok”

not a single friend of mine has givin me a call

even when I left them them messages

telling them all.

i wouldn’t know what to say …even if they did call


I still cant seem to sleep at all

today was the first day I’ve seen my man

in a month and he only got to come home

because we were married 7 years today.


in another hour it will just be my daughter

and me

again and still


I know I did the best I could

I just wish they had understood.

loosing my mother came with a huge cost

my pockets are now emtpy

and I am lost